I recently finished this painting called Summoning the Heart of Love. It was completed in two separate sittings, a couple of months apart. The inspiration was a conversation I had with a friend about “The Secret” and the idea that we summon that which comes to us with our thoughts. I have mixed feelings about this idea. I believe it to be true on some level, however most of us are not aware of the thoughts we have and so are surprised when we get what comes to us.
The idea for the painting developed from this conversation — what if I were to make a painting that expressed or summoned the type of love I had been looking for and yet thus far have been unable to find with a man.
When I started the painting, I had recently spent the day at the beach with my former boyfriend, someone I love dearly but with whom it never seems to work out, despite being on and off again for the last nearly 7 years. It was a perfect sort of day, as it often was between us, but for the tension of unfulfilled love and attraction, which made it less than perfect. That day ended up sourcing the under painting. I was surprised that that is what I started painting about when I started this “Summoning”. (see first draft below)
Some of you may like this version better – and because it is less subtle it may show up better in a photo. But after sitting with it for some months it seemed unfinished. Raw somehow and one dimensional, or maybe idealized and thus untruthful. So I let it sit. As that relationship devolved into 8 or 9 months post breakup, I began to see my way to finishing it.
After I saw the Life of Pi a couple of Sundays ago, I finished it the next day. I was inspired to completion by the scene in the movie when Pi just about gives up in the middle of the ocean, stranded for weeks, and about to be destroyed in a storm. He completely surrenders, embraces chaos, love and God.