Jill Joy – In the Distance – oil on canvas – 24×48 -2013 – Available
This painting is from my current series, Consciousness. The paintings in this series are atmospheric and slightly surreal. Basically they are me projecting my spiritual and emotional life on the outer world and landscape.
This painting in particular is a meditation on my current relationship. I painted it a couple of months ago not long after I’d re-entered a more or less “non traditional”, “non exclusive” relationship with my muse who I’ve been dating on and off for over 7 years now. I felt uncomfortable with this arrangement at first, even though I suggested it. We seemed to be unable to do without each other and yet both had many demands upon us that inhibited us from fulfilling all of the traditional obligations that go with a “relationship”.
In the distance signified my feeling that somewhere off in the distance we would find peace or reconciliation. In the ensuing months, I sort of feel I have. The structure of the relationship hasn’t changed but my perspective on it had deepened. I’ve come to realize that spiritually, I am getting exactly what I need. I am able to love and be loved without any sense of obligation. I expect he may feel the same.
Jill Joy – Thwarted Desire – oil on canvas – 48×48″ – 2013
What can I say about this painting? I can say a lot but sometimes I wonder, how much should I say and when is it best just to let people have their own experience? If you want to know some of my experience in painting this and then posting it, read on.
So many of you know the story of my muse, a long time on again off again lover, who inspires many of my paintings. He’s currently on again, but when I started this painting we were off. But I’m posting it now, not out of thwarted desire for him (the original inspiration) but out of thwarted desire for a lost artistic and financial opportunity; something that was dear to me and occupied my thoughts for many months and about which I had great hopes and expectations. Not too different from what I bring to my love relationships (for better or worse).
What I find so interesting about this is how a painting speaks to a “universal” experience. I am discovering this in the microcosm of myself. I painted it about one situation dear to my heart, that situation is remedied for the moment. But a subsequent loss re-triggered my identification with the painting, which is why I’m posting it now, many many months after I started and finished it. As an artist, this helps me to understand how my work can be relevant to others. When a painting or a poem captures the energy, the emotion of an experience, the circumstances don’t really matter and the viewer is free to project themselves, their life and their feelings on the image.
Jill Joy – Brilliant Blue Day – enamel on aluminum – 41×33 – 2013
Gulls trying to steal
Babies throwing sand
on your warm
Of Love for you
with the sunlight
On the water