In the Distance #art

Jill Joy - In the Distance - oil on canvas - 24x48 -2013

Jill Joy – In the Distance – oil on canvas – 24×48 -2013 – Available

This painting is from my current series, Consciousness. The paintings in this series are atmospheric and slightly surreal. Basically they are me projecting my spiritual and emotional life on the outer world and landscape.

This painting in particular is a meditation on my current relationship. I painted it a couple of months ago not long after I’d re-entered a more or less “non traditional”, “non exclusive” relationship with my muse who I’ve been dating on and off for over 7 years now. I felt uncomfortable with this arrangement at first, even though I suggested it. We seemed to be unable to do without each other and yet both had many demands upon us that inhibited us from fulfilling all of the traditional obligations that go with a “relationship”.

In the distance signified my feeling that somewhere off in the distance we would find peace or reconciliation. In the ensuing months, I sort of feel I have. The structure of the relationship hasn’t changed but my perspective on it had deepened. I’ve come to realize that spiritually, I am getting exactly what I need. I am able to love and be loved without any sense of obligation. I expect he may feel the same.

Thwarted Desire #art

Jill Joy - Thwarted Desire - oil on canvas - 48x48" - 2013

Jill Joy – Thwarted Desire – oil on canvas – 48×48″ – 2013

What can I say about this painting? I can say a lot but sometimes I wonder, how much should I say and when is it best just to let people have their own experience? If you want to know some of my experience in painting this and then posting it, read on.

So many of you know the story of my muse, a long time on again off again lover, who inspires many of my paintings. He’s currently on again, but when I started this painting we were off. But I’m posting it now, not out of thwarted desire for him (the original inspiration) but out of thwarted desire for a lost artistic and financial opportunity; something that was dear to me and occupied my thoughts for many months and about which I had great hopes and expectations. Not too different from what I bring to my love relationships (for better or worse).

What I find so interesting about this is how a painting speaks to a “universal” experience. I am discovering this in the microcosm of myself. I painted it about one situation dear to my heart, that situation is remedied for the moment. But a subsequent loss re-triggered my identification with the painting, which is why I’m posting it now, many many months after I started and finished it. As an artist, this helps me to understand how my work can be relevant to others. When a painting or a poem captures the energy, the emotion of an experience, the circumstances don’t really matter and the viewer is free to project themselves, their life and their feelings on the image.

Packaging #art #poetry

How do you capture
and bottle
Divine Inspiration
merging with
free form
un-tempered talent?

How do you
package it
For sale
without killing it
So the host
can survive?
(pay the rent
buy groceries
afford paint)
To keep working
and be a vessel
for divine love
Inspiration
and energy?

How do you do that?
(I’m finding out)

© Jill Joy August 26, 2013

Brilliant Blue Day #art

Jill Joy - Brilliant Blue Day - enamel on aluminum - 41x33 - 2013 72dpi

Jill Joy – Brilliant Blue Day – enamel on aluminum – 41×33 – 2013

Another brilliant
Blue day
With You
Cool water
Shimmering turquoise
and black
Gulls trying to steal
Babies throwing sand
My cheek
on your warm
flat stomach
Heart beating
Emanating waves
Of Love for you
Rippling out
Merging
with the sunlight
On the water
Peace
at last.

© Jill Joy August 26, 2013