Black Square #art

Cheers to you! I hope you are enjoying this day. It’s absolutely beautiful here in San Diego and I’m feeling blessed to live here. This is a recently completed piece – Black Square. It’s a little baby piece, 10×10″, completed, in a sense, as an afterthought with some leftover paint I had from a larger canvas. The more I looked at it though, the more I liked it. (read on….)

Jill Joy - Black Square - oil on canvas - 10x10 - 2013

Jill Joy – Black Square – oil on canvas – 10×10″ – 2013 – Pricing contact

I sometimes think what I do instinctively, without too much thought, is turns out to be my best work.

On a related note, I had a discussion not too long ago with an art gallery owner about the significance of leaving blank canvas in my work.

I find myself doing this, again, instinctively. But upon reflection I realized the significance of the symbolism of blank canvas for me. It is my sense that we are each an energetic, emotional, mental experience happening on a broader blank screen, or for me blank canvas. Some sort of emptiness or open space which we touch upon occasionally and which usually, when we do, brings a sense of peace or connectedness. Stillness. I’m spiritual by nature so for me this open space represents some kind of universal consciousness, but I don’t feel the need to define it too specifically.


Growth – New Work

This is a painting I completed recently. Again, part of my expanding Consciousness Series. What especially pleases me about this painting, aside from the intense sense of bursting and movement it captures, is that is seems to be the first painting where my two styles, Consciousness and Energy, intersect.

Jill Joy - Growth - oil on canvas - 60x48" -2013 - $1,950 USD

Jill Joy – Growth – oil on canvas – 60×48″ -2013 – $1,950 USD

As though my emotional and spiritual lives are getting closer to merging. See below an example of Energy and one of Consciousness. It occurs to me that this could be what enlightenment is, when there is no separation between the calling or knowing of the soul and one’s emotions.

Jill Joy - Aftermath - oil on canvas - 48x60" - 2012 - $1,950 USD

Jill Joy – Aftermath – oil on canvas – 48×60″ – 2012 – $1,950 USD

Jill Joy - Two Worlds Collide - oil on canvas - 72x48" - 2011 - $1,950 USD

Jill Joy – Two Worlds Collide – oil on canvas – 72×48″ – 2011 – $1,950 USD

Energy & Consciousness

The best works of art express the complexity of the human condition with an eye to transcendence. I work in two distinct styles which represent the dual aspect of the human condition.

My Energy Series is about the personal, individual struggle of dealing with loss, change and aspiration. Emotions are energy which must be allowed to move in order for us to transcend them. These paintings are intense, active and filled with a sense of that energy in motion.

Jill Joy - Dissolution - oil on canvas - 60x72" - $2,600 USD

Jill Joy – Dissolution – oil on canvas – 60×72″ – $2,600 USD

My Consciousness Series is about the end state or our “true” state – the sense of peace and place that comes when we are aligned with who we truly are, often after traversing a traumatic or difficult time and coming out on the other side. These paintings are about universal consciousness, and the individual’s place in that consciousness.

Jill Joy - Grey Skies - oil on canvas - 48x60" $1,750

Jill Joy – Grey Skies – oil on canvas – 48×60″ $1,750

There is an ongoing interplay in my life of clearing emotional energy to achieve a more profound and peaceful state of consciousness. As a result, I find myself alternating between these two forms of expression. I find myself wondering and perhaps expecting that at some point they will intersect.


Jill Joy - Doorway - oil on canvas - 72x48" - 2006

Jill Joy – Doorway – oil on canvas – 72×48″ – 2006 $1,750 US

In early 2006 I quit my day job and took some time off to paint. During the same period, I met a new man who I sensed would be important to me. I’d been married and divorced by this time in my life, and experienced the pain of losing the person I had loved most.

It took a huge leap of faith to give myself over to new love and the possibility of being hurt again. And also to quit work and open to the unknown. During the time I had off I painted until 2 and 3 am.

Jill Joy – Doorway – 72×48″ – oil on canvas – 2006

I knew from my previous experience that this would not be the “perfect” relationship, it would have issues and flaws, but I could tell that the relationship would be beautiful. I’ve come to realize that that which is meaningful is beautiful. I was painting late one night and my work took a totally new course as I was thinking about this new person. I painted “Doorway” which symbolized how I saw this new relationship. This became the first painting in the series “Life’s Not Perfect (but it’s beautiful)”.

It takes a lot of courage to walk through a new doorway in life. If you wait for the perfect moment, job, relationship or the perfect time to do what you love, it will never come. You have to follow your heart and seize the opportunities that you sense will be meaningful. The series that evolved from this piece explores the idea that even though life can be frustrating and disappointing sometimes, it can also be incredibly beautiful and poignant.

The Tree of Self Knowledge

In the end
You were the master gardener
Who pulled the remaining roots of
The tree of  “not good enough”
From my heart
With equal parts
Love and betrayal.

Planted by my father.
Without realizing it
You became
The reverse Eve to my Adam

Restoring my sense of divinity
By failing me.

I saw you forsake me
Despite how much you love me
The love of a whole and innocent heart
More than you ever loved anyone else.

So how can I take your betrayal personally
It was you, not me
Who exchanged authenticity for mindless duty
And in so doing lost me

And healed me.

© Jill Joy Apr – 2012 Poem Only

Note about Photo: Attribution unknown. I got this off the web. If anyone knows who the copyright belongs to please let me know and I will give it proper credit.

I AM GOOD aka They Mystery of Betrayal

Battered and Broken
I wake up to face the day
Realizing you Lied to me

You did your best
We both did
“We are simply not compatible”

Oh please.

Let’s not let that lie stand.

You are Running
From Yourself and thus Me
From the Greatest Love you will Ever have in a Lifetime.

It’s a tragedy.
And a Mystery.

Your inability to be intimate
To be response – Able
Is no reflection on Me

No point in looking into a Dirty Mirror
To See Myself
The image will never be Clear

So I look Inward
To see who I really Am
And what I see is


© Jill Joy – June 11, 2012

Jill Joy – The Mystery of Betrayal – oil  and gold leaf on canvas – 36×60″ 2011

Yes you can.


OK. So have you ever noticed how the universe talks to you? I think it does it in a myriad of ways. I’m particularly attuned to it right now probably because I am in transition, taking a leap of faith from corporate Jill to Artist Jill and looking for signs because I need them. I’ll be leaving my corporate job soon, renting my too expensive condo and moving into a tiny flat and relocating my art studio to Glashaus in Barrio Logan in San Diego (aka quasi industrial, sketchy neighborhood).

I was on my way up to Encinitas, CA for an art opening yesterday at this store up there, Bliss 101. I hope to show my ocean paintings up there at some point. After driving that 26 miles North, I would head back down and see my friend Matt Devine’s opening in one of the best galleries in La Jolla, CA. So this was a night of networking and business and supporting a friend.

In the 1/2 hr drive up to Encinitas I was alternately excited and terrified about my new beginning as I am every day alternating about 1,000 times a day. I pulled off the exit and this is what I saw. It was a laugh out loud moment. Could it be the universe chatting with me?